“The Lord said unto Enoch: Behold these thy brethren; they are the workmanship of mine own hands, and I gave unto them their knowledge, in the day I created them; and in the Garden of Eden, gave I unto man his agency; And unto thy brethren have I said, and also given commandment, that they should love one another, and that they should choose me, their Father; but behold, they are without affection, and they hate their own blood;…and the whole heavens shall weep over them, even all the workmanship of mine hands; wherefore should not the heavens weep, seeing these shall suffer?”
Today I’m 31. It’s not a special number and while birthdays have begun to lose their sparkle over the years, this one seems especially flat. Maybe it’s because everything feels so broken. An act of violence is de rigeur for the news cycle and even petty disagreements can bring out the worst of people on Facebook. Today, during my morning quiet time, I just felt overwhelmed by a feeling of powerlessness. So many people are suffering and yet, I have so much. My marriage is solid, we’re financially prosperous, and my baby is safe and healthy. So, so many blessings.
The last couple years, Joe and I have felt the pangs of cognitive dissonance. We have been looking for ways to do something. Netflix, games, even going to church feels hollow when you could be literally feeding the hungry and clothing the naked during that time. We have had our moments where I feel like we got it right, but for the most part, we are lazy and don’t do even a small percentage of what we could.
My husband asked me what I wanted this year, and the true, honest answer, is nothing. I have everything I need and all I could want. I mean, I have my eye on some wardrobe additions, but really, I’m pretty happy with what I have. But the question has been rolling in my head for the last week or so…What do I want for my birthday that would be reasonable to ask. So here it is, my request. Take a few minutes out of your day to pray for peace and healing. Visualize all those who are suffering, both those within our community and those on the other side of the world (why does it always have to be one or the other) and surround them with light and love. Envision them being held by the divine (whatever that means for you).
If you’re looking for a way to do more, check out Watsi. It’s a way to donate money for healthcare services to those who need it in low income countries.